Yeah, it's year end now. Just came back from my branch.(woke up at 12.30pm LOL.) Those days are getting boring and boring when I have no interest in participating activity, but enough of activity this year. Anyhow I still got some event to join in, so, non c'e problema! (Run off sentence, OMG, Forgive me, Mdm Leong!)
This post serves for only to soothing my frustrating mind and heart. Please forgive me if I offense anyone. I've been through this crazy year without even noticing it is going to end. Yes, things will change and people around me will come and go. I have a basic understanding for this fact but it never has been a truth in my heart. My heart urged me to leave the group which I can't afford to stay, prior to the environment it gave. That's my authentic feelings about everything I face and participate in. To be frank, I was driven to join a group prior to these few factors, People I care, Event I interested, Motivational Environment.
People I care most in the group has now officially off from it. After years of working and managing, she can finally rest from it and face the certain challenge ahead, that's what I call People will come and go. I cared for her not only because of her work, but her attitude that influence me everything to nowhere in this group. No one is perfect, dear, we don't have to push ourselves too much until we get stressed from people, event and things. Since you have now letting go, and so must I Moving forward, for I have nothing left there. Love and Bless you.
As the months go by, the Great Event I participate in has come to the end, yeah, Another end. It was touching and memorable. Thanks to hard work of every single member of it, we finally get through it. Although many conflicts and problems challenge us, I can't denied that our ability to manage things is still far away from the experienced, yet it is deal with no regret. Now the year end indicates the end of everything in this year, but the coming of new one, I will be there to welcome it. Event I will still participate, nonetheless it will be more variety of organization for me to participate in. Thanks to you, my lovely group.
Motivational Environment, is my most crucial factor that enables me to be fully committed to a group, whether in technique, management and diplomat. As the beginning of it, of course it will give me a motivational environment in a group. However, Things will change, people will get bored or even hot-tempered when facing strong challenge from everything. One of them is me. I am a hot-tempered man, easily get bored when facing challenge, but I swear upon my life that I will never leave the group until that challenge is settled. In the middle of it, I have conflicts with one of my most respected friend. He is the one who brings me in this group but yet, the one which I decided to keep safe distance. Compromising still lies within us, but not to practical. Our ways of thinking are extremely different, and somehow my bad habit of giving out words without think has made it worst. Personally, I get myself between the People I cared and him, that it isn't any necessity to leave. I love them, both, but yet I have to face them in both love and fear, Love for their persona, Fear for the conflict I aroused with him. Motivational Environment has since became down and down. I can't afford to stay too commit in front of it, partially because I'm too young and weak to face these. But It's a PAST. Present is in my hand, I will continue to commit in this group, though the commitment is greatly lessen, but my heart is there. Trust me, I will learn to FACE, to SEE and to LOVE.
With Grace,
Dylan.
